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From left:Lee Zhen,Pei Li,May Hui aka April,Wen Wen aka Fern
First night party with my sweethearts,aiwen joined us!! My first visit to Butter Factory,lousy music night, heard people say it's fun.!? Hope that day was just exceptional. HAHA. I had Vodka Cranberry,shared a jug of Long Island, Gin Tonic, aiwen's friend offered us some drinks too, no idea what it is. Next day ended up with muscle aches around my body :/

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My mind now it's kinda blank.i just need to type some feelings down.Heart is aching,tears running again.
Got the urge to key in that well-memorised number into my phone and say some things to him.
But i didn't.
I know i shouldn't.
I got no idea why am I like this now, why did i allow all this to happen.
These wasn't what I expect things to be, not with all these unbearable pain and tears.
I can be understanding,provided I'm you try to too,you know?
I just wanna care, regardless of any status,I don't care so much about that I guess.
I really just wanna share some happy,unhappy,good and bad with you,
is it so hard to spare mi some time?
You stabbed mi, in some way.
and i'm bleeding helplessly.
Friends might be trying to help to stop mi from bleeding further,
I somehow feel it's not gonna take effect compared to help from you.

You'r busy..,always.I'm fine with that.
Don't you visit Gents?Don't you eat?
I have excuse for you,to make myself feel better you know?
Okae,maybe you no longer feel the way you used to towards mi already.Den let mi know can?
I will leave,if you need mi to leave you alone totally.

I've sharing with my friends about my life.Good or bad,all revealed.

I don't know whether you'll mind.
But I doubt I can do anything if you mind, I've been living for people for these years.And this time,I thought I would want to do something for myself. Maybe this is why I wanted a break from my ex?
yea,and that question kinda slowly became more unsure to mi.

At first,you sensed my happiness of freedom,and you asked mi whether I realise.
Now,things turned out bad for mi,maybe good for you in a way.
But can you still sense?I need your sense to work now!
Crying every now and then isn't gonna work things out.I know.

My dear friends..
thanks for all the blessing, solution,possibilities suggested and all the love.
I know no matter what you all said,all mean well for mi.
I don't know wad's got into mi,turning mi like tis.
Bear with mi awhile more,I'll try to heal a lil.
 

20th March 09

WeiJie's the birthday boy. I pull Ting to go with me cause I don't wanna go alone.. It's been awhile since I can go for any things like this, I really wanna go, he's a nice friend so I shouldn't disappoint him yea.
Had quite some drinks there...even before the food is ready, I drank up the 4 glasses of Chivas greentea (they don't wanna drink their share, soI shall help them!) Then after that they ask us to join in play some games, i really know nuts. So i volunteered to help Ting drink if she lose. After that went to play picking cards game, that one no need to know anything, so I joined. They made the vodka quite thick, stupid, made me drink almost pure cause i made a remark say quite shiok. 
Went to catch "COMING SOON" with Mayhui's BF gang..cause she's got friend bday on that day. Coincidentally, was having his chalet there too. Quite a fun day with Weijie's campmates and pri sch friends..hahhaha

  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

FInallyyyyyy,Nicole Lee is keeping her evening free for meetup. LOL. we had been postpone-ing the meetup for weeks already..
It's quite a short meetup though, simply just dinner and dessert. :))
Went Ji De Chi at JP.
My order: Ice Red Bean with Rice ball
Nicole's order: Mango sago with pamelo (signature)
Lately my choices of dessert are all red bean. Love them.. teehee.
  
  
  
  
  
 

Wednesday plan was initially going to have some fun at Jurong Swimming Complex, but early in the morning, Ting said something bad happened, she wasn't in the mood for swim. So we just go get her phone fixed in town and lunch. Suddenly, dancing queen wants the floor again! Coincidentally it was Ladies night again... so despite I have school the following day, I agreed. I wanted a drink too
We was afraid that we still can't enter Rebel, so we went Arena to have some free drink first. After some warming up and a lil drinking competition, we left! We were all out to try our luck into Rebel, cause worse come to worse, we still have Arena. We entered around 11pm, nobody's on the dance floor yet. Ting pulled me to the middle of the floor (so embarassing! there were many people watching). So I told her the solution, GIVE ME A DRINK! whahhahaha.. Long Island Tea again. I guess it's really the one that so far allow me to feel the alcohol in my blood fastest one. Before we finish the drink, the server thought it's some customer left without finishing it, replaced a NEW one for us!!wohoo~~
After that, someone who had a bottle of ciroc vodka and a cranberry mixer is leaving already. Then he told us we can have them!! thought the vodka doesn't left much, but the mixer still have half jug! GOODNESS, we shared a $20 Long Islang Tea and end up drinking so much!!
SO SO GOOD!!
I wore a 3.5" heels and we were dancing till the club close.
whahhaahha
   
  
  
  
  
  
  
 

Last night met Paige for a movie. "Let The Right One In" . I saw the trailer once and I thought it was nice, was attracted by the movie name. LOL. Anywayy, because we went in late and missed the front part, which we heard from some stranger saying gotta tink back the intro part to get the link. OMG. so Paige and I were guessing WTH was going on..
I was hungry after the show ends, didn't ate much before meeting her. Went to had LJS, shared a meal and decided to go for a drink! Didn't want to go back so soon, the night was still young la..
Okae, final decision was IndoChine. :))
my 2nd visit. Sat there with our drinks and was sharing our views on r/s :)) They close so early!! 1am and they are keeping the cushion already! No choice, we gotta hurry finish up our drink and go.
Her order: Chocolate Martini
My order: Sex on the Beach
Heard from her she can't really drink, during the walk back, she was blushing. Tsk tsk tsk.. need some training ah Paige.
A guy who's interested in Paige wanted to send her home so much,send us back home. :)) lucky girl you.
Had fun with you chatting, hang out soon again!
 
  
  
  
  
  
  

I just remembered I forgotten to post these up!!Oh dear.. never mind.
2weeks ago, went movie with Ting and Howard "Marley & Me" . Marley died in the end, though i'm afraid of dogs, I imagined myself having a such lovely dog and after all the years that we've been through together, he gotta leave. And I teare.,so sad.
Den we headed for dinner and it's PARTY TIME!
Didn't had any drink that night, no money already, couldn't get a lil more high like usual.. sigh
was sat and St james was hell packed. Btw, the songs and the DJ sucks. lousy mixing. ARGH. TIng went up table dance, Howard and me in our own individual world. Awkward can. HAHAHAHA..(there's something i noticed and I don't tink I wanna mention) :P
Howard and I moved to nearer to Ting and was initially more spacious when we just moved there. And it gets more crowded around us again..............Totally turn off, plus the stupid music, stupid server and inconsiderate people taking their own sweet time moving around!
Couldn't take it anymore, we left around 1am. LOL. And the queue outside was still longgggg,
I was thinking: they must be dancing like sadine, "HAPPY SQUEEZING!" :X







 

Hate reality at this moment.
*Sigh*
I dreamt of you last night, and the entire dream was you. I so don't wanna wake up, but too bad I had deadline to meet.
The dream is too nice for me to leave my bed, I'd really rather live in dream.
It's really gonna make me feel so much better..
There's this problem with me.When I don't see you for some time, I really wanna see you. But after I met you, I miss you even more.
And that's so painful.
So, should I see you, or should I not?

I really feel like crying now..I know I'll be okae after awhile. But not at this moment
I don't wanna be a unreasonable somebody, but I'll still feel something's missing.
I keep telling myself I'm not anyone of yours,why complain so much,just keep them all to yourself like what I did in the past..
Don't know is it i'm no longer attached, so I'm weaker.
I tink most probably yes..

Busy boy, go do whatever you want that makes you feel good okae.. :))
I'm so contradicting.
I want you good, but I'll be no good then..
Okae,I had said what I wanna say to you.
I guess this is the only place I can let my words out to you (too afraid of direct respond already)
Feeling slightly better after all this..
nites.
 

Some words that really fits what's in my heart.
                                                       To you:

     

        


 

It's not always that I have time for my sister, am really a lousy sister..

Just now we went to JP for early dinner, cause she gotta meet someone at 4plus (but we were late). We went to had Ayam Penyet (Java Village). As compared to the one at Lucky Plaza, it's really nothing great. The difference is quite obvious la. One thing good is that the chilli at Java Village ones aren't as spicy as the one at LP. :)))

Met my darling after that to had Starbucks time. The usual drink with the usual girls. EVERYTHING's SWEET & FATTERNING!! SHYT.
Anyway, we had fun with our Cooking Mama again, but today played awhile only and stop for stories exchanging session...
Oh ya, we were really serious when we'r playing with our Mama! LOL.


  


COOKING MAMA!!!

  
  
  
  
  
  
  
 

 

I realised something yesterday, I didn't regret since it helped mi in one way or another. Some things are not very nice to be mention here. Anyway met my TingTing in the late afternoon, we need to return our uniforms to Rebel. I suggested buying some chocolates for the nice people in Rebel and some in Zirca. :)) we got them from Candy Empire.
When we jux finished our dinner, those chap from Rebel and Zirca came over to Central for their dinner before their work. After we went Rebel, it's our coffee time.
***STARBUCKS*** 
2 crazy girls enjoying themselves with DSlite.. HAHAHA . It was seriously fun!
After that Terence suddenly called and ask wanna have supper anot, Kent drove us to Yishun for some wind and ice-cream. HEHE. I disturb the ice-cream uncle :PP
I enjoyed the ride cos we had nice music and winding the windows down letting my hair fly when the wind blow in....  :))
Supper at West Coast, Cheese Prata House.
Thanks EVERYONE that I've met yesterday, you guys made my day! (ESP my darling)